I did not realise I would take redundancy so hard
I have been made redundant twice and am now finding it really hard to get a new job. The first time the whole company went down overnight and I managed to pick myself up and get on with it. This time however I was in the first tranche of staff to go and I have taken it really personally.
The company has now gone down and everyone is redundant but I am still struggling three months later. I am running out of money which makes it worse and I am starting to panic. I spend my whole time asking why I went first. I thought I worked hard, I was never late, hardly ever sick and my boss always seemed to like my work. However I feel as if I let the company down and I was rubbish.